Stressed much?

Whew this week has been horrible.  And whoever is holding that light at the end of the tunnel just keeps running further and further away.  My boyfriend and I had gotten into an argument Tuesday and it just tore me up. So bad that I had an anxiety attack on Thursday and had to stay home from school & work to try to stop hyperventilating pretty much.  Thank God for great friends B & D.  They're so much more than friends, their true family. B and I joke about being sisters and it really should be that way.  Thankfully tho, boyfriend and I made up and had a nice night Thursday.  But then he deployed this weekend 😢.  It still feels unreal; like I could still text him, or see him in a day or two instead of 6 months.  Still waiting for definite word he made it to his destination safely.  

Add to the stress, tomorrow starts Finals week.  And I'm a horrible procrastinator do haven't studied nearly as much as I should have.  Tests on Mon, Turs, Thurs and a huge paper due Wednesday by noon.  Which means tomorrow and Tuesday night I'll be writing furiously.  I'm exhausted mentally, spiritually, and physically.  I'm lucky that my mom decided to visit, and she's keeping munchkin occupied so that I can study.  

But I'm wearing myself waaaay too thin.  I just need to get through this week; get thru one day at a time.  Then I can breathe again for a short while.  

It's times like tonight that the world just seems to overwhelm me.  Like I can never do enough. Never catch up.  And it's hard to stay optimistic when life swerves like this.  But the main factor in everything is my little girl.  I'm trying to provide for her, and yeah life gets hard.  But it'll all be worth it in the end.  

Nothing worth having is easy.

I can't promise you it'll be easy. But it'll be worth it.